new update.

well, it’s been a really REALLY REALLYYYYYYYYYYYY long time since I updated, ha.ha.ha.

but anw, today’s christmassss!! 🙂 so i felt thr was a need to update anyway. because today’s my Lord’s birthday! 🙂 so I went for christmas service early early in the morning with my dg! yezzz we’ve been gng out so frequently i swear we break record. this is like the 7th time we’ve gone out in 2.5 wks omg LOL. but anw, the acapella and the performance items were so goooddd! 🙂 hehehehe I wish I had as good as a voice as our church singers 🙂

then headed to klp for lunching and stuff! as usual, played taiti and stuff with bridge! 🙂 dapao-ed some stuff up to eat and played w carolyn, jinny, hannah and jerry cardsss. and truth or dare, etc. but xmas this year doesn’t really feel like christmas, idk why! 😦 like not enough atmosphere? hahahaha.

but anw, went out w jinny & carol for 2x study outings! 😀

on friday, we LAUGHED LIKE SHIT MAN ABOUT OUR RANDOM HEAD BOBBER (HEHEHEH WE KNOW WHO IT IS) and shared carrot cake, tangyuan, plus chicken rice!! omg omg omg yumzzzz i love them hehheheh. and idk why, whenever jinny’s around, my math is like omg superb and i can do the questions! and i love my bitch carol too HAHAHA. she’s so sweet omg i just love her lah. with jinny alsooo that noobo who’s so cute! 🙂

but that was at bedok library LOLOL and we also talked about the jc-s they wanted to head too at jc! cuz i’m alr in vj so apparently, I’m stuck thr 😦 really wish i can cont to be in the same dg as them leh!!! apparently, jinny wants to go MJC, and carol wants to go to TJC or MJC I THINK. THINK. i really can’t rmb 😦 my memory’s failing me!

but we talked so loudly in the library it was a miracle we didn’t get chased out! laughed about all the random things and they two are so cute HAHAHA. swear i love them to bitzzzz!

but so the prev time was at the airport! gosh its so fun studying at the airport cuz you see all the tourists and stuff and all the air stewardesses (?) who are gorgeousssss *–* heheheh. everyone always says i have lesbian tendencies, but i do NOT. DO NOT AT ALL. I’m straight and I like guys! HAHAHA.

yep so we made macs our temporary vagabond site and just camped there the whole dayy. some waiter found like $100 okay WTF. then still ask us is it ours?! WE  SHOULD HAVE JUST SAID YES LOLOLOL. and I’ve figured out some secrets…. CAROLYN 😉 😉 HEHEHE. its so fun to blackmail ahahaha i’m so evil! >:)

oh yah and we had 14 snr jnr outing too that ended up as a class outing, OH WHATEVER. HAHAH.

OH. AND OUR DG CHRISTMAS PARTY!!!!! I ALMOST FORGOT ABOUT THAT HEEEE 😛 yup so in the morning we went to ecp, and then i played like bridge/taiti w annora, janelle, jinny, estell, andrea 🙂 hehehe cuz i didn’t wear proper footwear for soccer so i didn’t play! then after a while our crazy guys decided to head into the sea with wayne hammering the water and acting like a merman HAHAHAH omg he’s damn funny.

and stupid johann annoying me (btw he’s my new cute lil’ bruddahhh! love him.) with his stupid card trix! but yep we camwhored so thr’s some rly stupid and funny pics and janelle was so funny gosh LOL. i forgot what but she was being funny. HAHAH. then then then! me, janelle, jinny, annora headed down to annora’s house for a bath cuz we were stinky pigs 😦 talked thr and stuff and laughed a lot too! hahahahaha.

before we headed to nik’s house where we started playing cards….. AGAIN -_-” just realised we play lots of cards all the time. and like had rly yummy food thr plus took pictures bcuz thr was supposed to be formal shot! and the guys were acting cool. and me + jinny + annora + grace tan + hannah were tryna harmonize “we are the reason”! 🙂 damn nice hehehheeh. but yes so i left at 830 bcuz mummy was scolding why i was so late! hahahaha. and ended up leaving my slippers + cards all at nik’s house, which he returned to me on sat during dare svc but I left it thr. and now it’s lost. SMART ME RIGHT -.- HAHA. sometimes my own stupidity amazes me. 😀

so here are some of the pictures wheee~~~~ damn nice okay!! 🙂 🙂

 class outing with laopo 🙂

 all the 14 girls though ynez and sara and joanna plus suby were missing! and rachael my darling didn’t come too 😦 😦

 me and ddee which is so unglam omg 😦

 carolyn and meeee ❤ ❤ ❤

 our formal polaroid hehhehe!

 us girlsss! 🙂 except that its a bit blurry. and carol plus jinny not thr 😦

 mahjong queen i am.

one of my fav shots cuz i’m monkey-fied.

 charlie teh unicron! 😀

 aladdin girls~~~

  a nice group shot.

 me, estell, and jinny! 🙂

funny dreams and banana milkshakes.

it’s been a while since i updated, but yeah i’ve been lazy so yeah hehehe. anyway, this is gonna be one LONG AND EMOTIONAL POST.

was looking through my past photos and cards and everything, and really just started thinking about things. To me, 2010 was a horrible year, filled with sadness and heartbreak and idk what. Everything in 2010 was really just a blur, and all I remember telling people is “I hated 2010 cuz it sucked. It absolutely sucked ass.” But just now, when I saw all my little memories noted in cards, and everything, I realise I actually forgot about the sweet and happy memories that made their way to me throughout all the bitterness and depression. All I focused on, was how pathetic I was, the friendships I lost, how many insults I received, and how I felt a lot of the time. I forgot about the happy memories, the friends that I took for granted, and in turn, I lost them.

To think about it, I was really being sensitive and silly over everything. Certain “storms” and “nightmares”, to me now, are really nothing but a childish me just blowing up matters and being retarded. I feel really nostalgic and apologetic but I have no idea where to start.

Hi Person (****i**), 

I’m not sure if you’ll see this, but somehow I’m just really sorry for whatever shit we had. There were lots of misunderstandings in between, and all I cared about was trying to defend myself against any accusations I faced, out of which some I still believe I am in the right till this day. But of course, I was at fault too, so I’m saying sorry. It’s been more than a year since the incident happened, but I never got a chance to really say sorry. Really just hope we can erase the past and you know, start a friendship again? Really hate any awkwardness between us. You were once one of my best-est friends, and I have no idea what happened in between, but to me now, it’s all just a mix and myriad of colours that although had grey and black in it, was also filled with brightness like yellow. I guess I just asked for too much, and was too sensitive about certain stuff, so yep sorry girl. Hope you’ll see this and we can restart our friendship 🙂

xx,

Ashley

and to the rest of the people involved (you know who you are), I’m sorry that such a fight happened between us, and somehow I”ve never been able to really pick up the pieces. You guys were once the most important part of my life, and though now the mirror has shattered, you guys still occasionally cross my mind and I do still miss you guys. Do you guys ever think about me sometimes too? I don’t know but if you do see this too, then thank you for all the beautiful memories you guys left me with, and hope we can catch up sometime soon okay? 🙂

but anw, had a dream just now that was really RIDICULOUS AND SCARY. LOL I dreamt of him and sungyeol and rachael and a lot of people lah wtbong LOLOL 🙂 and this random dude that looked 90% like him HAHAHA, and he liked me instead and had the same personality and I was torn between the two because like he’s not the original. I told him (as in the real one) and he was like angry or smth idk wth i’m talking HAHAHAHA and I was in dance. DANCE, YKNOW LIKE HIPHOP. whoohoo~~ and sungyeol went blind for me (wth? -_-) and rachael and me were bimbo-ing away like there’s no tmr hehehe! 🙂 JUST LOVE THAT GIRLLLLL. #bimbos4lyfe 😀

and so yep i texted her after that cuz i miss her like shit asbjdkhfkjkl 😦 and like we promised a few things hohoho!

1. to start our same food menu choices everyday when school reopens

2. to be retarded and laugh over stupid things

3. and to fangirl ( HER OVER HER JB AND ME OVER BEAST/INFINITE)

😀

oh plus plus!! she’s not gng for class outing 😦 so hehe depends on my mood cuz i don’t really feel like gng too! hehehe 🙂 and i got her her present alr (she’s got me mine too WAHAHAHAHA :D) but idk whether i should save this prezzie for her birthday instead cuz it’s on the february idk what AHAHA sorry dear! 🙂 🙂 and so really near + more meaningful mah 🙂 hehehee see how first.

but gosh just got my parcel from online not long ago that had my pullover in it!!!! so happy cuz it’s black and polka dotted 😀 SHALL TAKE A PHOTO ONE DAYYYYY 🙂 hehehehe! and like waiting for my nail polish now 🙂 it’s gonna be so damn pretty omgosh. LOLOLOL I JUST LOVE SHOPPING.

may not be some rich kid who always affords stuff from H&M, topshop, zara, and idk what, but I still love these brands so yupp i’ll save money!! 🙂 🙂 🙂 🙂 $_$ and i like shopping online a LOT. LIKE SERIOUSLY HAHHA. no need go out, still can get at home! only thing is i have to wait 😦 annoying much.

and for those who wanna get me a xmas prezzie, here’s the list:

-nail polishes from OPI/china glaze 😀 😀 😀 (!!!!!!)

-pretty pullovers from korea that are big and comfyyy! 🙂 or actually any pullover from f21 blah all can 😀

-leather bags in burgundy/purplegray/whatever as long as they’re pretty 🙂

-DOCTOR MARTENS OMGOSH THEY’RE DAMN PRETTY. or like gladiators in brown/black 🙂

-or hmmmm some bangles from h&m or diva or whatever. those classy ones horrrrr HAHA 🙂

my shoe size is 7, now go go!!!!! 🙂